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a year
12:14 am / 08.12.05

I think it's been a year
a year of thoughs
and cuts
and no tears
I think it's been a whole year.

the words stopped
ran away from home
and I ran away from me

I ran to be alone.
I can't be alone when I'm not at home
I am alone enough with you.


I think it's been a year since I've felt
felt deep
cut deep
touched deeply
a whole year with out a word
written
skipped into my keyboard

I think it's been a year.

I blamed the muse
that angry boy
the one who calls himself the one
I blamed the muse,
but is it not true
the muse just stopped amusing me?
isn't that MY personal evolution?

the muse has caught my eye again
red sweatshirted my sides again
orange lipped my life again
orange lipped a kiss.

I think it's been a year since an orange lipped kiss.
Amusing how I can't go back.
can't slap myself onto a page anymore.
graduality bites.
i want immediate results.

I think it's been a year, and another year to come.
words that slip from my fingers..
it will take time.
eyes that don't disect.
that willk take time.


maybe a year
maybe more.
i think i have the time.
i think i have the stamina
i think i have a year.

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