smell of three day old cigarette smoke clinging to my jeans
smoke three
pass one
and we pass and we pass
and the pot smoke didnt linger
like i almost hoped it would
i see im not so special to you now.
i see.
we passed the night with a silent ride
singing words
of utter amazment out the frozen windows of my
car
sweet sour smell of samual adams
all around my lips
i drive.
I guess Im not a friend of yours anymore.
now that i smile
and i cry because i can not see myself truely anymore.
please someone save me from happiness
someone free me from faith
help me wallow in my loneliness and
escape to a land where
someone cares that Im alone.
warm sun or a friend,
drinking shots while i pretend
Im not drinking alone
Im not drunk alone.
not tonight
not tonight.
I'm not drinking alone.
someone come free me from smiling
hold me back when i try to fly
it's high time i realized that
high time i realize
that I'm not the one who wont die
Im the crier the faithless mess
Im the faker the messer the selfish depressed.
I'm not free and amused
Im wont be torn or abused
Im the one you all will forget about someday.
I'm the screaming that all goes away
I'm the screaming that just went.
9:25 pm - 20.01.04
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