Im so sick of being the girl
that their eyes just roll over.
and i hurts the most because i dont understand.
how can i see myself as so beautiful
but not have their eyes view the same?
Am i blind?
do i not see
am i lying to myself
saying im worth it all
and i wonder if anyone loves me
but is too afaride to say
because of the way i look
or something i said to them.
Does my lying hurt mislead you when i say
it dosent really mean that much to me.
because it does.
i guess i just dont want you to know that
i truthfully think about that night
about how much i want a hand to hold
and a body to be with in the slow songs
not even you.
Just someone to make me feel
normal for a few hours.
make me feel like im not
a complete failure.
like im worth it.
because i tell myself.
IM WORTH IT.
IM WORTH THEIR TIME.
HOW CAN I NOT BE?
but im falling apart
worring about that night.
and what will become of me when Im old.
I just dont want to be lonely.
9:02 pm - Thursday, Sept. 12, 2002
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