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I know you know.
12:41 am / 22.08.03

these are moments
unclean
and I sit
cheshire smiling
i know
i know
i know

you stare
mona lisa blankly
out fogged windows
and we sing along
to all
the songs we wont admidt
we cant stand anymore

I sit testing my patience and
smile
cry and laugh
another day is risen
another love will fall
and still hearts beat
slowler when we're sleeping

today is beauty
today is pain
diluted sorrows and
fancy scented dreams
too expensive
too unreal

i am dead again
I am alive here now.
I still smile here
and spill
spill
spill all my clumsy tears
down
red swollen
cheeks.

i cheshire smile
and disappear
again to the cold
again into oblivion

speaking of death row feedings
and maggot infested brains
again i feel burried

lies
in lies
and like fingers
intertwided
I lay here
sprawled naked
on a soft
down comforter

cold
I know
I know
you know.

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