golden smile
you and your
silver sweet lips
and melting heart
out on the
hot pavement.
dont leave me tonight.
i hate to sleep alone now.
i hate to be alone
i cant sleep anymore.
im so sleep deprived
and ditto you
because i couldnt find a corner
to
burrow into
its like your soul
dosent exist
and im searching way too
hard to find something
that i already know
isnt there.
bitter and old
im feeling cold and betrayed
because you never tell me why
why
im not good enough for your love,
why I, little ugly me.
cant grow up to
be the swan my
mother always promised me
i would be.
im ready
and im sick of wishing
and lord, who am i kidding
everyone knows
god dosent listen to me anymore,
if ever.
looking back i remember waterfalls
and cigeretts
falling over clifts
of my insanity
and all the barbie's
heads
torn off.
i spit in her face.
one day
one dull dreary day
i still wouldnt be as good as she.
i still hope someone would love me
get me out of this pit
get me.
to someone who can help.
toilets always over flow
and i always cry.
12:48 am - 29.03.03
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