I dont know where i am
or why this white cloth is
wrapped to tight around me
and I feel like suffocating
on all these feelings
that sit hevily in the air around me.
And Im sorry for being so ignorant
and Im sorry for not telling you
and I am sorry.
I feel like my life is all a big
mistake and like
the people are all just playing a game
where my feelings
are the prize
and My heart is just then to be thrown
away.
Oh if only i could have someone to love me
someone to lay beside be while i cry
and
to feel the strength in someone's eyes
who can help me feel again
and my tears are like a shower
washing all this numbness away
and i swore to myself it wouldnt matter
and i swore that i wouldnt care
but im drowning in feelings
that i dont know the name of
that i cant explain to anyone
with words
and the people who i can share it with
are all just
backwards again
Its like the world is on fire
and Im caught right on top
like the whole worlds being rained upon
and Im thew only one with an umbrella
that i cant put down
and the fact that i dont look like myself makes me feel ill
and sick to the stomache.
The Phone is like a murder scream
and your voice the victim.
Im sorry I ended this way.
Im sorry today's not my day.
Im afraid to say this this way.
But Im gone.
old and stale,
and reborn,
crying naked
and so tired i can barely open my eyes.
4:11 pm - 25.05.03
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