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the love i felt
1:08 pm / 21.02.04

a while ago i sat by my window

thinking of all the love i had lost

and forgetting to think of the love

i had still

holding it in my hands

so tight i couldnt feel my pulse

so tight i couldnt think of anything but

the love i had wasted

the love i hadnt gained.

and the sun set and rose

and i cried into my pillows

and i sang songs for people to hear

that all my life had disappeared.

and a while ago i looked to the sky

wistling all the tuned the birds taught

me to sing

and i though of the one i had loved and

had lost and of all the times

i never really knew who he was.

and i said to him he was my world

everything i adored

and the earth didnt move beneath my feet

i just wept and beat the pain into me.

and the sun set and rose

and i was crying into my pillows

and i sang songs for people to hear

that all my life had disappeared.

and a while ago i died

with my face impressed in glass

the tears i had shed for him were shattering and scattering all around me

cutting my skin

breaking my spirit i walked

with my face to the wind and

i liked the sting on my ears

i died and i set a song

and the birds sang all day long

they knew something i didnt know

under the frost of a broken heart

lays the buds of a spring time kiss

a weathered hand for me to hold

and a fist of love to share

with the world.

and the sun set and rose

i'm done crying in my pillows

I'll sing songs for all to hear

The love you felt will never disappear

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