There are nights when i feel alive
and nights when i feel so dead inside
and when your face is close to mine
i fly i fly i fly.
oh what wrath the gods have against me
how is it possible for me to be so
closed minded
yet so open
and you say he is my savior
my father his son
but all i feel is betrayed.
Ive prayed and wished and
hoped for more from life
put in time
and put out smiles
but this is all ive been given
this day these words.
where is my gift?
and this day is too short
the hours waste away
and you're wasting time.
so i tell you that i love you all the time
and im reminded of faults
i possess
and I apoligize
there are some nights when i feel so alive
and jumping off a high building seems
like a smart idea
or atleast just trying to
smile at you
but how can i smile accross one million miles?
you told me once that
my emotions were melody
that i was smart
beautiful
and worthwile.
what ever happened to I love you?
and is my life such a bore now that even i cant watch it tick slowly by.
where is my god?
my friends?
my gift?
my hope?
these nights when im dead
i want to go and sleep at the place that
doesnt exist
or sleep underthe stars
or just sleep naked in waffle weave blankets
dreaming of the bright white lights.
and Kelly took a picture of me.
my smile too shy,
my eyes too wild
im too much for you all arnt i?
thats cool
im straight
and artwork seems so bland anyways
how can i capture emotion?
did you see me carry my camera?
and i capture emotion
even emotion you say is
"not to be remembered"
hell. remember it all.
why feel pain if not to love it
or smile if you dont need it
dont feel it?
why write out these syllables
if you cant read it outloud?
why don't you read this next part out loud?
I am strong.
am I there?
will this moment be precious
or just another time. place. feeling
or is this
my emotion speeking?
can i hear myself anymore
do i feel alive tonight.
and if i could..
would i be drunk on bright white light?
9:49 pm - 30.05.03
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