spit-tears's Diaryland
Diary
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ticking clock
numb and a bummer I can't believe you left me last summer after asking and suggesting we stay as a team and then shouted cruelty at me midstream then you blame me and make me feel tiny say i did the same to you regularly, but I don't recall trying to make you feel small- I hate myself for missing you- ache for my lips to be kissing you- my husband, best friend, I'll never kiss you again because I've been told to move on without you. It' been 10 years since I've tried to write been a decade since I let it flow free I hadn't tired of being inspired by your head and lovely heartbeat Wish I knew why my story repeated of being led down a primrose path then defeated tossed aside, to be replaced with someone freshfaced. But alas for you- I'm too loud too crude too sarcastic too hurt too inert. too much this, too much that, too little of something else.
and still I yearn and I never learn, that even if they ask for forever- I've always got a ticking clock.
1:39 pm - Thursday, Jan. 06, 2022
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