spit-tears's Diaryland
Diary
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the fear factor
tight in my jaw I'm holding disappointment between my shoulder blades the muscles in your face held rage when you cried i saw so much pain in your eyes and the confusion at the base of my neck considers where the fear you complain of resides. How did I flex you to fear me? When did my actions cause harm? How am I to hold myself accountable if I don't know what on earth I did to lose the love of a very best friend. you waited- we dated- cohabitated- engaged, then married, just so- I confessed, we undressed, convalesced my finesse are you afraid because you fell for someone untouchable- outside your marriage to me? were you fearful I would judge how you were flogging? is the fear of being the bad guy as you pick apart my worth? were you afraid how I would respond to your cruel mirth? I finally felt on a swing up when you pulled the rug out but I can't stop feeling like it's still somehow my fault. that you kissed me, and held me- and told me you were fine- as you unstitched your heart from mine.
7:37 pm - Tuesday, Jan. 18, 2022
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