1:33 am / 12.07.04
silence makes me realize
you are more than my companion.
noone knows me well enough to love me like you love me.
thankyou for not giving a fuck
about my problems and my victories.
and i mean that in this way.
you keep me real.
with out you i am a fog of lies and fears
and when you are here i am allowed to be anything.
you are amazing.
i dont tell you i love you enough.
and i let you down too much
i don't believe this is the first thing i've written for you.
but you wont make me apologize
or fight my urges to cry
and i know its like you say
pen to person
paper to pen
isnt make me stronger
but then again i am not looking to be
and neither are you
we can both shut up
and enjoy the ride
and cry when jeff cries
and forgive the times we make
thankyou for being more of a friend to me than all others combined
thankyou for teaching me to forget my pride and pain
thank you for not giving up on me
and calling back
and leaving messages
for drinking smoothies
for forgiving me for giving my sister the extra seat
for inviting me along
for seeing mean girls with me twice
for the only call on my birthday last year
for the valentine bear you sent me two years ago.
and target trips
orange icees, iced cappichinos, darren and macey, toren and kimb.
and the denial game
for everything for the past 3 years.
thank you lauren.